I'm tired.I'm confused.I'm finished.
I have a disease.
Always looking for the bleeding edge,always downloading daily builds, testing stuff to no end. I've tested so much unneeded shit I can't even remember.
From Plan9 to Haiku Os,from FreeBSD to Gentoo and all kinds of other linux distributions, from Menuet OS,Kolibri,Android-x86 to chromium os builds by Hexxeh and lets not remember my failed mac attempts,so many wasted DVDs...I'm through.
I am the architect of my own depression.Things not working/booting,forever subscribing to develop mailing lists,dependency hell,endless formats and configs.
Did it make me a better person? No. Did it help me in real life? No. Did it make me feel more secure? To be honest I was feeling more secure when I didn't know what viruses were and had a computer bloated with pron.
I will be waiting for this month's BIE release,install that and never do something about my computer unless it really bothers me.
I'll even give coding a second thought.I don't want to study hard for like 5 years and then spend the rest of my life in a chair like I'm doing now.I think I will go for something like psychology or philosophy.I still have some time to think even though most people my age have already decided what they will do with their lives.
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